Do you want me like the other boys do?
I can feel their greedy eyes, as they crawl upon my flesh,
Forever longing to defile the sanctity of my feelings
It’s as though my humanity left the room as I entered…
Can you see it? The colour of the room shifts; melts away, giving way to –
No.
For no path was given, only taken and ravished like animals we are
I deny not the feelings that moisten my brow, but I hold back
Forever afraid that I will go too far, further than I can withstand.
But for you, there were no limits, no restraints except upon me.
Your smile stops my heart, weakens my knees, and hastens my breath.
Almost to say, you are but mine, as I need you
Do you want me?
Want is a feeling that I know now as emotion, for it rocks my soul
&Terrifies my heart.
Takes me to a place of temptation; where love doesn’t exist in this moment
Love abides only by the rules of the flesh; it too waits by the door
Do you want me?
I want nothing more than to make my dreams real, to see you
In front of me as I did in my mind’s eye
Beautiful and everything I needed in that moment –
Free of normal conventions, free to exist as I am.
Independent of the notions of man, &bathed in the laws of feeling
I want nothing more than to rejoice in the screams, dance in the moans
&rest wrapped in love
Do you want me?
With all my heart, I do. I crave you.
However not as we are said to be, not in the flesh,
But in those moments where our souls intertwine…
Where we connect in love,
Where our touch is electric
Where my midnight cravings, my late night reverie –
Is a dream between you and me…
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